You heard me.
I freaking manifested peeing with THE Gabby Bernstein…
I had been a fan of Gabby for about a year, getting more into yoga and my spiritual development (or should I say return as I had been very involved when I was quite young) I found her through online sources – it started out as a mention here and there and then I watched her as a guest through a membership site I’m a part of and at a point I said to myself – that’s IT! “Who is the Gabby Bernstein person?!” And I was hooked. Her message, her vibe, her everyday realness, a spiritual teacher who was sassy and into fashion? Tell me more.
I frequented her online live video’s, blog posts and podcast interviews and loved her everything she was about. I was incredibly inspired and excited. Her ideas and teachings elevated my own mind and energy. From mindset, to manifesting, releasing blocks and self love healing… I was so in.
The pic that got regrammed by Gabby when I went to see her speak in Montreal. The Universe Has Your Back and Judgement Detox have been added since.
Spirit Junkie Masterclass dates were announced, it’s a weekend event in June attracting like minded high vibers, mostly women, who come together in a theatre holding 300 in downtown NYC. Coming from all over the world to learn, expand, turn inward, understand and love. I immediately felt a huge tug from my insides. I had to be there.
Since I’m a makeup artist who had weddings booked pretty much every weekend, especially in the summer and sometimes a year in advance. I actually had that very weekend off (and this was only about six weeks until show time) WHA?! But what’s a girl to do who is broke AF, especially with the Canadian dollar – this just wasn’t gonna happen in a usual way.
Pining away and trying my little heart out in the manifest teachings of trust, faith and visualizing over a weeks time, a mini miracle happened – the price was discounted for a weekend. All weekend I meditated on going, I was picturing myself there, front and center, meeting so many incredible people, traveling to NYC… my mantra for the weekend was “money comes to me in unexpected ways”. Sunday rolled around and as I kept refreshing the sales page, finally, the discount was gone. “Well”, I thought to myself, “I guess it’s not happening now”. And I let it go.
Letting go is everything
The next day while in the middle of my own yoga practice at home, a thought hit my brain so hard while I was in down dog, I jumped up and don’t even remember running to my computer. F it! I’m recording and sending a video to Gabby Bernstein’s people asking if they need any help with volunteers or if they offer any scholarships. I recorded a short video in my Lulu tank in a full on sweat – I just had to get this out there. Due to some techy difficulty my video wouldn’t upload properly and I decided to wait until the next day to send it so it wasn’t in the middle of a pile of morning emails (I’m so sneaky and thoughtful 😉
Early the next morning, I checked up on Gabby’s Instagram while waiting for my video to upload to YouTube and…. omfg….. OMG – it’s a post announcing they’re accepting videos for scholarships for Spirit Junkie Masterclass – are you kidding me?!?! AHHHHH!!!! So you bet I ran into my room to record an intro telling of the crazy awesomeness and sent that video in asap.
I waited and paced, feeling such a buzz through my body. Even if I didn’t get the scholarship, I was so proud of myself for being open and listening to my inner self for knowing, a day early, to get the video done. Don’t mess with me, I was on FIRE! I called my mum (obvs) and declared “I could do a thousand, I could figure out my budget if it was discounted to one thousand dollars to go”
You know what happened next?
I got it.
I got exactly what I asked for.
An email from Gabby’s assistant Ali, telling me that they would love to offer me a scholarship at JUST UNDER the amount I declared out loud. For realz. And yep – there were tears of joy.
The word manifest hasn’t been the same since for me.
I’m going to effing NYC.
Staying with my dear friend who lives in Harlem, I was so excited to get downtown, the SJM alum bunch is the most kind and supportive and had arranged a late lunch spot down the street from the venue for anyone who wanted to join and we all walked (skipped or pranced would be a more fitting word – we were all BEAMING with anticipation)
I didn’t try to get this very spiritual number seat – meant to be
Lining up outside and pouring into the venue, we were the keeners and bee lined to get as close to a front row center seat as we could. Then took turns going to the lobby to check stuff out, several vendors with gorgeous things to support us including Satya Jewlery, Love Bomb and Muse headbands were my faves.
Gabby’s Love Bomb mug on stage “Today I will manifest some cool ass shit”
On our way in!
The theatre filled up, I was making friends all around us and I decided to run to the bathroom really quick before it started. I darted into the stall, peed super quick and bolted out only to have Gabby standing right in front of me. She was adjusting her outfit (if memory serves me it was a very cool white pant onesie) and her friend and show producer was there helping her, I helped out a bit (post washing hands I promise) stumbling over words including “I used to be a stylist” or something like that and I’m sure made some more weird awkward comments before “break a leg” and ran back to my seat telling my neighbours “she’s about to come out!”. The house lights dimmed, the stage lights came up and there she was, starting a dance party for us all. We all were on our feet and didn’t stop the celebration all weekend. There were so many tears, laughs, realizations, journaling, aha moments – I honestly can’t even describe it fully… what I can say that it was life changing, I would do it again in a heartbeat. It’s a mission of mine to go to SJM2 this year*. I can’t wait.
She takes the stage
Thank you Gabby for holding space for 300 of us in prayer, making sure we had tons of tissues, honesty, love and dancing up a storm. I’m so happy you didn’t have a wardrobe malfunction up there… #yourewelcome 😉
Below are some more pics of my Spirit Junkie manifesting.
See the rainbow – I caught magic everywhere, my eyes were open to it all after the weekend. Tattooed foot (same subway ride as the rainbow) “Strength”, green heart on the ground (Magic EVERYWHERE I tells ya!), Fake wrist tat with my necklace. This necklace was a gift from my one of my best friends when I was going through a difficult time. I wore it as a sign to anyone who needed it at SJM and then I found this fake tattoo in our lobby. PERFECT. The universe totally has my back. And my miracles bracelet from our gift bag. I still wear it every time I go out.
*It took me three years, but my third SJM in a row – I did it, I signed up and attended level two that fall. Click HERE for that post.